My back is getting a bit now, after the injuries I sustained during the conflict. You sign on to do a cetain job and you finish the job to the 100% of your capabilities. It is nature which I am part of. I got so frustrated with my physical problems I become very frustrated. For an active person who has to stop being physical can be easily a life changing episode, where one fights it to the limit. then you start accepting it. There is a paradoxical feeling at this state. Shall I get by getting more on benefits, or exercise to get better but lose my benefits. I chose the latter, not to do the right thing but as I was getting fucking boring about the life style I was living. I have got myself a little flatm where I control everything. It is not very exciting but I have my own roof over my head.



I am a selfish person.


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